In Stitches...

Well...today my sweet baby boy had his first fall...and got stitches. My sister-in-law was watching him this morning while I went to stand in line with 100's of other people for free dental care (nothing's really free, is it??) and I got a call about an hour later saying Jakey had fallen down the stairs. My understanding is that the baby gate hadn't been put up yet. Anyhow, it was a horrible experience for Jakey and for me. I had to hold him down while the doctor put in three stitches. I have never seen stitches being put in before and they asked me how he does with bandaids and I said we don't know...he's never had to have a bandaid before. So we made it almost 15 months without major incident and here we are today. He is acting fine now, but he doesn't want me to change the bandage, that's for sure. It's right above his eye, through his eyebrow. I have the same scar in my eyebrow of the same eye. Isn't that wierd???? Mine's from going down a slide when I was 2 and landing on a little boy playing with a metal truck at the bottom. I am thankful that it wasn't another inch lower, it would have been his actual eye. I am thankful he didn't get a concussion. I am thankful he is ok and he is a big brave boy. I am torn between frustration about the baby gate and feeling bad for my sister-in-law. I know it was an accident and she feels horrible. I just don't ever want him to experience anything painful like this again. Isn't that what all moms want??? I love my sweet little boy. There is nothing quite like the fear of something being wrong with your child. I am a little hot-tempered and prone to screaming, etc. when I'm angry or mad, but this time I was silent. I drove to their house in silence and walked in, in silence. I just wanted to hold my baby boy. Then when I talked to her, I didn't raise my voice or talk ugly, I just talked quietly and softly and said as little as possible...mostly to prevent from crying like a baby. I'm a wimp when it comes to Jakey. He is ok, and that is ALL that matters. Thanks be to God.